#17
von mia16
its like i'm locked in a room.
a room that, i really wanted to go into. it looked so comfortable. so fun and easy going. this room, has people there that are beautiful, and happy.
i knocked at the door to this room for a long time, never got in tho... just got a glimpse of the happiness inside, and i really wanted to be where those people were.
then, 5 years ago... i got in. and when i got into that bright, vibrant room.....it was so different.
there was no air... no windows. the light was slowly going out.....the people looked unhappy, scared, they had no faces and they certainly werent having any fun. those people faded away....... and now, theres just me. i'm stuck, in this dark, suffocating space, that i can't get out of.
i cant see my own face anymore... just a hazey reflection in a toilet bowl. i ache to leave here.....but the handle on the door has gone. and even if it was there... i'm too weak to grab it, too scared of whats on the other side. i cant remember what the other place is like... i think it was carefree.......here... i worry. i have to think about what time it is... am i alone? will i ever leave? what would i be if i want here... how long i will stay here before i go back to normal. or is this normal now?
